Ako po si Justin, ang liberal na bata na naghahanap ng
ligaya, kalayaan,respeto at pagmamahal.
Walang ipagmamalaking kahit ano..
Balang araw, gusto ko maging direktor, direktor na tatalakay sa mga isyu tungkol sa "sexualidad," "prostitusyon" at
"buhay kontrabida," dahil pag pinaguusapan na iyong mga bagay na iyon sa industriyang sinehan, makikita at makukuhanan
ko kung pano gumawa ng anak ang 2 taong nagmamahalan, hindi ba masaya iyon? pinagsabay na pera at kaligayahan? sobrang
liberal ako at wala ka nang magagawa doon. salamat.
Ang lahat ng lalabas sa blog na ito, ay akin, ngunit kong may isinaad akong pinagkuhanan ng inpormasyon ay marahil kanila yoon.
minsan ay mayroon ding mga salitang hindi naangkop sa mga bata, kaya ang gabay ng magulang ay kinakailangan din.
hindi ko kailangan mag-adjust kung nababstusan kayo sa akin, dahil wala akong pakialam sa mga nababastusan o kung kahit sinong may bayolenteng reaksyon tungkol sa akin.
malugod akong nagpapasalamat at binigyan mong oras na basahin ang kawalanghiyaang mga isinassad dito.
nagbasa ka na rin lang, ay lulubos-lubosin ko na, gamitin ang comments sa ilalim ng araw ng titulo ng isang blog entry kung ikaw ay may nais ikomento tungkol sa isang post,
gamitin ang tagboard sa pagbati at hindi sa pagkomento ng isang post, maraming-maraming salamat po, nawa'y ikaw'y masiyahan sa pakikialam sa aking
magulo, antipatiko ngunit masayang buhay.
I HOPE YOU HAD A WONDERFUL FIVE HUNDRED "TWEN'NY" 5 THOUSAND SIX HUNDRED MINUTES!!
because i did.. and im so sure that i'm going to another one this coming year.. yikee!! i know I became better, bigger and bolder because of what happoened to me the year that came... haaixx.. how i wish it is always liek this for us.. yikee!! "Anyway, he uh... he gets down to the end of his life, and he looks back and decides that all those years he suffered, Those were the best years of his life, 'cause they made him who he was. All those years he was happy? You know, total waste. Didn't learn a thing. So, if you sleep until you're 18... Ah, think of the suffering you're gonna miss. I mean high school? High school-those are your prime suffering years. You don't get better suffering than that."
-frank, little miss sunshine
"A loser is someone afraid of winning they wont even try..."
-richard, little miss sunshine
"There's two kinds of people in this world, there's winners and there's losers. Okay, you know what the difference is? Winners don't give up. "
-richard, little miss sunshine
"Life is like the surf, just give away yourself like the sea..."
if there will be one question that i wanna ask everybody including God... that would be WHY US?
fate? destiny? why this kind? a thing that i could not bare... and all i can do is cry and weep... even though i promised i wont... still i cant stop... all i can lean on is that action... so i can feel much more better...
how bout you? could you answer... WHY US? nahhh... even though you can answer my question... that couldn't change a thing... he will still be... NVM... i promised not to tell anybody... including my personal blog...
... felt like holding into a grip and suddenly... a fairy waves her wand and then you wake up... and you'll know.. that everything you've been holding on into is just thin air... and you fall... fall to the point that you'd rather die than live?
sheesh! NRG research group cancelled all my shifts for the whole week, that's why guess what? I DONT HAVE WORK FOR THE WHOLE WEEK! they simply lack projects for everybody, they lack hours for all agents, anyway... at least im finish with my christmas list, all im worrying nowe is the boxing day happening next week!! I've got no money!! and the trip im preparing to meet up with my baby... *blush*
anyway... at least(again) i spent more time talking to my baby and to some people;... Ohhh yah.. MS. atheneum was held in school today, i got to talk to the whole 607, the whole batch was like actually there, but chempre, di naman maiiwasan na may mawala, haaixx... i soo miss those guys...
know what? i feel so glad, ecstatic and overwhelmed these days... coz me and my baby were like back to normal, back like our first weeks, so sweet and well loved and loving, yah.. he'll be here like in 3 days time... yipeee!! im so excited! and i just cant hide it.. anyway.. i just miss him and i wanna make him feel my love, or just look at him or just hold hands with him gaahhhdd!!! or simply just spend time wasting time with him. :P anyway... we're both looking for ways to make our relationship stronger, and now? it's only time that passes on our way... :)
christmas time is rapidly approaching, anyway, im prepared on it.. :)
nagaaral sa isang magandang school na may slack na subjects, kumikita ng reasonable amount ng pera sa isang akenjoy enjoy na work at nakikipag-chill sa mga friends na naearn ko na rin dito ay ilan lang sa mga bagay na nagagawa ko dito sa CA. eh panu kaya kung hindi ako umalis ng pinas? naisip ko lang...
kung hindi nagapply ang mga magulang ko dito sa CA, siguro nanunuod ako ngayon ng maalaala mo kaya sa pinas dahil friday ng madaling araw na dun, wala ang dad ko sa bahay dahil nasa abroad siya at nagtatrabaho, ang mum ko naman at dalawa kong kapatid eh 2log na, at katxt ko siguro si jigz habang nanunuod ng maalaala mo kaya...
kakauwi ko lang galing UST dahil nagaaral ako duon ng advertising, uber saya ko sa mga subjects ko, simple lang buhay ko pag may pasok, at dahil weekends ngayon eh pinauwi ako sa bahay ni mommy... bukas eh saturday, magogrocery kami as always, like ng ginagawa namin before, tas after magrocery eh manunuod ng sine, this time it's different, kasama na namin si jigz, kilalang kilala na nila mommy si jigz dahil 2months na nga naman kami ni jigz at lagi siyang sumasama sa lakad ng pamilya at lagi chempre ako lagi rin sumasama sa mga lakad nila ni tita, ang alam ng pamilya namin eh bestfriends kami pero we're more than that, haha! pag-sunday naman, hindi kami nagkikita kasi pareho kami nagchuchurch, aus lng, magkatxt pa din kami...
tas pag weekdays naman, parheo kami ng school, pareho din kami ng schedule kaya hindi nagcaclash ang oras namin, labas nmen everyday is 11 oklak, after school, magkasama na kami buong araw or minsan nmn pag busy, kasama niya friends niya, si rob naman ang kasama ko, kung san san kami napunta, at ang dami na naming napuntahan... ung mga plans nmen before na puntahan eh napuntahan na namin at ngayon, hirap kami magisip kung anung gus2 namin bagong puntahan, wala naman kaming pera...
mag mi-ms. a nga pala sa december 20, pupunta halos buong batch, hindi dapat ako mawala, matagal ko na rin hindi nakikita sila thea kaya kailangan pumunta din ako dun...
nagpaplano na rin siguro ng inom sila rob ngayon like nung ginawa namin before, tlgang di kme na2log at usap usap lang kami sa aming bisyohan. sa mascardo... si jigz naman... ma22log ako sa kanila after christmas hanggang birthday niya.. para masaya! aus lng kela mum... malaki tiwala nila kay jigz... haha!!
gnun pa din ang buhay ko, monotonous, school-jigz-dorm-bahay. aun... un lng nagbago, masaya naman kasi ngayon eh may nadagdag na sa kwento ko, may nagmamahal sakin at tlgang minamahal ko rin... maayos ang studies ko at alam kong may patutunguhan na ang buhay ko...
pero wala eh... kung nasa pilipinas lang ako niyan.. eh siguro hanggang pangarap nlng yan... nasa Canada na ako eh, ibang iba na ang buhay ko before, weh hindi ko na nga mabigyan ng oras ang sarili ko.. pero bakit ganun? hindi parin makita nung mga bagay na binibigyan ko ng oras na importante rin sila sa akin? kung gan2 lang rin ang mangyayare... sana hindi na lang ako umalis ng pinas... sana nananaginip na lang ako ngayon at magising na... ng makasama ko ang gus2 ko makasama sa buong buhay...
pero hindi... Canada na ang buhay ko ngayon, huhukayin ko na lang siguro ang makapal na nyebe para makita ang sarili ko... pero alam ko... makikita ko rin ang sarili ko.. at ang paraan upang makasama ang taong gus2 ko makasama habang buhay...
takte, libreng internet dito sa media tech class ko, beh tapos nako sa mga gawaing libro kaya anung ggwin ko dito? magjakol? IDTS(hmf ang arte!) beh dang daming tao! so magboblog nlang ako... :)
"in a land, full of bitches, there's a man, sending kisses, a beautiful sight, so happy tonight, walking in the bitchywonderland!!"
yan ang mga nagagawa npag homesick ka, maikli lang tong post ko beh naisip ko lng yang kantang yan tska yung nakausap ko nung tuesday na respondent sa work...
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sa isang simpleng research tungkol sa mga casino at entertainment sa NRG...
ako: Ma'm could you please describe me your ethnic origin?
mam: OHHH!!(tuwang tuwa!) my ethnic origin is fine... very fine indeed!
ako: (natatawa na hindi ko alam kung maiinis o mahihiya dahil alam kong pinay siya dahil pagbigkas niya ng "CASINO" eh "KASINO" !)mam are you asian? caucasian... canadian?
mam: im asian..
ako: ok ma'm those are all my questions for you tonight thank you and have a great evening!
mam: Oh wait a sec(o-ha! sosyal ang ateng may fine ethnic origin!) are you a filipino?
ako: ay opo! cge po! maraming salamat po ulit at maligayang pasko!
mam: salamat din! at maligayang pasko rin!
dooooooooottttt!!
haay.. sarap makakausap ng kababayng sa telepono sa survey, eto naman si ate eh! d ko tuloi alam kung anu ang irereaksyon ko sa kanya, d ko alam kung mahihiya ako o matutuwa dhil sinabi niyang fine ang ethnic origin natin! ahahahay!! kaloko!!
wala rin nga palang pulang hotdog dito. wahahaha! lahat brown@ hmf! wag green minded dhil green ang grass!! wala lng tlgang tender juicy at swift at kung anu anu pa dito! hahahaha! :P
ever wondered how fast a happy person recovers from a failed relationship? no need.. im gonna tell you now...
a happy person obviously wants to make sure that everything is happy, everything is ok, even if it's not, even if he or she is sacrificing hypocrisy and his or her own feelings. he pretends that he has moved on but no matter what aspect you view the situation, he is hurt.
been so emotional in the past few weeks, cried a gallon an a half, and bled bottles of blood literally and figuratively because of some crappy things that i've been through in the past few weeks. but yes, time can really do heal the wounds, add the factor of space, we are faraway from each other that's why it was easier for me to move on.
yes people, i've moved on, i have no one new, it's just that i realized that everything must be enough for now, time will tell. but as a quote says...
"once you've undergo a failed relationship, the pain is always left unaided, everyone thinks you've moved on but you'll later realize you never stopped loving them. you just learn how to live without them..."
i think that is true, because, yea, i admit, i never did stopped loving him, but then he says...
"love is to give and to give until it hurts, so dont blame yourself if you love the other at your best and he only gives you half, because in the end, at least you can say you loved more."
i really dont know... so enough with those emoshits. hahaha!! anyways, we stayed as bestfriends... YEA PEOPLE WHO KNOWs ME!! I NOW HAVE A BESTFRIEND!! THEREFORE... I AM WEAK!!
sheesh... anyway... expect happy posts to come... because i'm really enjoying my stay here CA.. but yeah.. i still miss Philippines...
"you've been very kind for me. you gave me help when i have nothing. but i am hurt and i know you are too, it's even more difficult for you because i know you are confused, but if letting go will make things better, i'd be willing to sacrifice myself, just for you're happiness. goodluck to you and him, you now have your fairytale ending... :)"
