Ako po si Justin, ang liberal na bata na naghahanap ng
ligaya, kalayaan,respeto at pagmamahal.
Walang ipagmamalaking kahit ano..
Balang araw, gusto ko maging direktor, direktor na tatalakay sa mga isyu tungkol sa "sexualidad," "prostitusyon" at
"buhay kontrabida," dahil pag pinaguusapan na iyong mga bagay na iyon sa industriyang sinehan, makikita at makukuhanan
ko kung pano gumawa ng anak ang 2 taong nagmamahalan, hindi ba masaya iyon? pinagsabay na pera at kaligayahan? sobrang
liberal ako at wala ka nang magagawa doon. salamat.
Ang lahat ng lalabas sa blog na ito, ay akin, ngunit kong may isinaad akong pinagkuhanan ng inpormasyon ay marahil kanila yoon.
minsan ay mayroon ding mga salitang hindi naangkop sa mga bata, kaya ang gabay ng magulang ay kinakailangan din.
hindi ko kailangan mag-adjust kung nababstusan kayo sa akin, dahil wala akong pakialam sa mga nababastusan o kung kahit sinong may bayolenteng reaksyon tungkol sa akin.
malugod akong nagpapasalamat at binigyan mong oras na basahin ang kawalanghiyaang mga isinassad dito.
nagbasa ka na rin lang, ay lulubos-lubosin ko na, gamitin ang comments sa ilalim ng araw ng titulo ng isang blog entry kung ikaw ay may nais ikomento tungkol sa isang post,
gamitin ang tagboard sa pagbati at hindi sa pagkomento ng isang post, maraming-maraming salamat po, nawa'y ikaw'y masiyahan sa pakikialam sa aking
magulo, antipatiko ngunit masayang buhay.
"hello this is justin from NRG research group, we are conducting a study among adults 18 years of age or older about roadside services, insurance companies and leisure travels, may i speak with the person 18 years of age or older whos at home now?"
a phrase over used by urs truyl these days... yes guys... im working as a call center agent and it's one tiring work! gahhd... im like talking for about 5 hours saying those things and i only get like 5 people to take the survey.. WTF? 5/190 calls? sheeshhhh....
i called a person earlier and they were like playing with me... they made me talk to the dog, and to a baby and they were so crazy! now i know the feeling of call center agents when they are dumped by people...
now please.. if a call center agent calls you... asking for your time to take their survey... please take the survey for it is really hard to look for respondents... please?!? do it for me?? :)
my english class just ended a while ago and here i am blogging again at my dull black box that doesnt even asnwer my bitchy questions. ugh. so im back to normal again. bored, stagnant, uncertain and inconsistent. haaayyy... buhay imigranteng nagiintay ng VISA nga naman oh! anyway. im so gonna miss the people i shared some ups and downs with. i so feel different with them eh, it's like they're my highschool friends, kahit na they're 20-22 and im just 16, gawdamnit!! we can really relate with each other. napamahal sa akin ng sobra yung mga classmates ko sa english class.
that class kept me busy for 1 month. nakwento ko na yung problema with the past institution kaya we ended up having it on the teachers house nlng diba? me, together with my classmates have been through that. kaya feel ko ang dami naming pinagdaan. ang dami ring UBE(ultimate bonding experience) na napagdaanan namin, ang daming wrong grammar, tas wrong pronunciation, pero masaya pa rin kami. :)
kanina it's so weird, parang ako ang apple of the eye! star of the day ng lahat! dpt kasi bukas na lang ang class nmen, may bagyo kasi diba? ako pa nga nagsabing mei bagyo eh, pero i feel guilty kasi pansin ko, tanghali na wala pa ring ulan, kaya nagresume ang classes namen ng 5-9 nlng. so continue with the apple of the eye story, so dahil akala ko nga eh malamig, nakasweater ako, lahat ng tao nakatingin sakin kasi nga medyo mainit na tas nakasweater pa rin ako(AOTE*apple of the eye*#1), tas sa jeep, mei kolboying mamang tingin ng tingin sakin, tas kinindatan pako, ugh, kadiri(AOTE#2)! tas sa mall, mei group of three guys na pinaguusapan ako na possible prospect daw ako, target daw ako, tas nakatitigan ko yung isa, inirapan ko nga(AOTE#4)! and las but not the least, sa jeep pauwe! powta! dami kong nakasabay na cute na kuya sa jeep, at take note nakakatitigan ko, at they keep on checkin me, ewan ko nga baka may dumi lang ako sa mukha or its just the sweater na naman. pero ay, lahat sila married, may wedding ring. UGH!
sa english class kanina, we had our last lessons, usually puro UBE lang knina, masaya kami, tas yung main event eh yung spontaneous public speaking, unang topic ko is global warming, ang problema lang daw sakin eh yung malikot ako, tas nung 2nd round, teenage pregnancy, ang problema ko daw eh, mabilis ako magsalita at eye contact, i admit naman na i did better on the first round, but itsoke. masaya naman! :) tas last activity, eh yung parang know your personality. west ako eh, basta yung west dinedefine nun yung creative tas flexible and versatile and likes being unique! ayun, tas uwi na.
eto ulit ako, hahanap ng mapagkakaabalahan, kesa naman magjakol lng ako ng magjakol, aba manunuyot nako nun.
ill so miss my friends there. anyway, magkikita-kita pa rin naman kami shempre. :)
insomniac na ata ako. im really having a hard time to sleep before 12. so hafta either watch a movie or watch t.v. at dahil sira ang tv kagabi. at lahat ata ng cd ko eh napanuod ko na thrice. i hafta search for another past time. at guess wut? i found short story writing! woohoo! mei magagawa na ako ngayon pag d pa ako datnan ng antok. :) **
I never did want to be late for this "go-see" event happening on Rockwell tent but the Mars like temperature of a 200 pesos coffee from Starbucks and a small chat with officemates keeps me from being the early bird that catches the model-wannabees that if you'd really look at them closely, it's as if they took a bath a million times this morning.
The company made this "go-see" event a really big deal for everybody including the whole Philippines, and my officemates were like "hey! we can do this go-see on a four cornered room naman? why spend bucks making commercials for people to know that we need good looking people?" but on my side, at least I get to meet new people and perhaps put on spotlight new faces.
It's not a surprise seeing a very long queue of I think 10,000 people in this tent because the company shed a million bucks just to show a 2 minute commercial saying that "WE NEED FACES TO FACE HOLLYWOOD STAR'S ADVERTISING POWERS!" btw, i am a well known advertiser/icon and the head advertiser of this company and im so proud to say that the Philippines has the Second top sales from our company's product in the whole world because of the commercials i've produced and conceptualized.
As soon as I entered the tent, a bunch of greetings just came popping out in every corner of my eye, because the people think that i'd add points to them with just a simple hello, or the live and dressed chicken they gave me. But no, I'd be looking for each and every person going up the stage and see if the person we're looking for is on the list.
The long line of model wannabees with some PAs entered the venue and as i sit to my comfortable chair, hands got colder and faces got more sweaty, Im with my 2 officemates that will judge the wannabees just like a cheap star search on t.v.
Spray nets, face powder, make-ups and hair wax flooded into the tent as soon as the floor manager shouted "5 minutes." Mothers became more tensed and make-up artists put on the last retouch that the wannabees really need.
As the first 50 came up the stage and showed a beam of a tupperware smile, we've made them introduce one by one in just one phrase then we made them walk just really like a cheap star search on t.v. the only difference is we're searching for "walking people with nice clothes on" and not a star to host a noontime show. we're looking for 2 pairs of male and female that will surely hit the spot and will be deserving to carry and make the first letters of their alphabet D&G with their innocent but intelligent faces that i think is not on the first set so i shouted "next!"
And the 50 came down with sad looking faces, a big fat booty momma approached me holding a bunch of "turon" and gave it to me, with her thinking that i would change my idea of dumping her son with her fried bannana, she told me that her son is the one wearing the red polo. I bursted a sweet giggle showing that she made me laugh and so she asked "bat daw ako natawa?" "with your son's red top and green dyed jeans and afro-shaggy hair? who would never laugh?" my heart screaming. so just to be nice i just answered "hindi pa naman po tapos ang audition, mamaya pa po kami pipili, di po ba inexplain ng floor manager na wag aalis lahat hanggang sa makaakyat ng stage lahat?" she just nodded and left, but the bitch in me was really rude and i cant believe my mouth just shouted "paki sabi po sa anak niyo merry christmas" she didn't heard it but my officemates were already running out of air cause of laughing.
The 200 set of models was finally over and we were so happy to announce 4 fresh looking faces to dominate the billboards of EDSA holding the letters D&G. A mother of 5 models came running to our table as the floor manager announces the new models, they were very angry for they think that their children is deserving to be chosen and they end up trash talking, but the explaining part was done by the staff and crew and i had gone home to prepare for the 7pm meeting to introduce the new models and my new advertisement.
I really dont know why bosses were a big pain on our asses and they've organized this meeting late at night right after an event? so the meeting started 7 and our new fresh faces were introduced, the President seem to like them and pictured a good mood and said warming compliments contrary to his mood because of the jailed vice-president cause of bouncing checks just 3 days ago. I've also presented the new commercial featuring Nicole Kidman, Paris Hilton, Brad Pitt and Tom Cruise. because we want to show the whole world that with our products, they can be glamorous, prestigous, beautiful and passionate.
Euphonic words came out from our boss as soon as the commercial was finish. he then signed the contract with ETC, guaranteeing them that they will be the only one showing the commercial to the whole world. Good news didn't end there, due to my great abilities and potential, i've been promoted as the vice-president of D&G Philippines! woohooo! I'm really enjoying this yuppie life of mine!
As i drive my black shiny car, and took a sip from my 20 minute coffee, i can see the picture of tranquility roaming all around roxas boulevard, I suddenly felt empty. with all this money, fame nd fortune, am i really happy? but anyway... here i am, driving a million dollar car, taking a sip from a 2000 pesos coffee, and listening broadway from my million pesos laptop, smelling the cold air alone and feeling the vice-president of a large company in me. WHO WOULD NEVER BE HAPPY? :(
fist of all, i would like to thank my mopther and my father for bringing me into the top of this world and for paying a good internet connection...
i would also like to thank the readers of this blog, this would be nothing without you... i really appreciate it! :0 coz what's a blog without no one reading it?
i would also like to thank the readers for always being there for me, i dont know if you're reading tis blog for information, entertainment or watsoever purposes but not knowing that you really make me happy whenever somebody tags me or comments on my blog, not necessary if it's good or bad, as long as i know that there are readers who continues to support my blog.
I really lurve the to mention the names of those people who's viewed my blog 50+ times, a very high thank you to the following people:
lumabas ako sa amin at tumambad sa akin ang umaatikabong bibig ni talakerang kapitbahay na putak ng putak dahil nawawala daw ang kanyang pinakamamahal na sampayan, pamana daw ito ng kanyang lola kaya mahal na mahal niya ito...
papunta ako sa aking dentista upang magpakabit na ng braces, pagkatapos ng ilang oras, nakabit na niya ang mga bakal sa aking sungki-sungking ngipin, lumakad ako pauwi sa amin dahil kulang ang pamasaheng binigay ng nanay ko, masaya ako sa pagkakabit ng braces, at sa tingin ko bagay naman ang bakal at gray na kulay nito.
halos trenta minutos din akong naglalakad pauwi, at pagbalik ko sa amin, nakita ko na lang na pinuputakan ni talakerang kapitbahay ang aking nanay, sinisisi niya ito sa pagkawala ng kanyang sampayan, nakita niya daw bukas ang pinto namin kagabi habang mei aninong pumasok daw sa kanilang bakuran, sa loob-loob ko, bakit hindi niya sinigawan ang anino?
pagdating ko sa kahel naming gate, dumiretso na lang ako sa loob ng aming bahay para hindi na ako madamay sa pagtatalak ni talakerang kapitbahay, unti-unti ng sumasakit ang aking ipin, para bang kinocompress siya ng kung anung materyal, ngunit napagtiyatiyagaan ko pa naman ito, hindi rin ako makakain ng maayos dahil sumasabit sabit ang kanin-kanin sa ipin ko dahil hindi ko ito manguya ng pino.
nung hapon, naramdaman kong ok na ang ipin ko, pumunta kami sa aming pampamilyang mananahi para upang kunin na ang susuutin ko sa sagala, ako ang partner ni reyna hustisya kaya kailangan maganda tlga ang susuutin ko. pagdating namin doon, agad na pansin ng mananahi ang aking malabakal na ngipen, nagandahan siya dito at sinabing bagay daw ito sa akin, at dito, napatunayan na bagay nga sa akin ang braces na ito.
nung gumabi, pinapila na kami upang sumagal sa buong barangay, ayoko talga nito dahil kakakabit lang ng braces ko at palalakarin lang kami, ngunit sadyang mapilit ang mga taong bayan at gusto talaga nila akong makita sa sagala. naglalakad kami ni reyna hustisya at todo ngiti ng biglang mei babaeng sumabunot sa akin... si talakerang kapitbahay, ipinuputak na naman ang kanyang nawawalang sampayan, nakita na raw niya ito...
pinangiti ako ni talakerang kapitbahay,
"ito ba ang gusto niyong ipartner dito? sampayan lang ninanakaw pa.."
shempre hindi ako papatalo,
"hindi po ito ang sampayan niyo,"
"aba, sumasagot ka pa! nilagyan mo lang yan ng gomang kulay gray para di ko mapansin eh! susmiyo! makakarating ito sa baranggay captain!"
"naku! hwag na po! dahil hindi po talaga ito ang sampyan niyo, braces ho ito!"
"bahala ka diyan!"
biglang mei chismosang pakialamera ang sumingit..
"braces nga naman yan!"
at tumugon lahat ng tao..
"oo! braces yan!"
napahiya si talakerang kapitbahay at itinuloy ang sagala... :)
*** lahat ng isinaad sa kwentong ito ay pawang di-katotohanan, ginawa ko ito for information purposes, anung information iyon? MAY BRACES NA AKO!
hindi pa siya tapos kasi medyo sariwa pa yung sugat sa inoperahn ko, ikakabit yun pag ok na... medyo masakit siya, pero pano pa kaya kung kinabit na yung sa mga pinakadulong ipin? :) di rin ako makakain ng maayos.
so, kanina, binunutan ulit ako ng ipen, sa left side naman, medyo mas mahirap bunutin iyun, kasi nga nakahiga daw..
so more dugo ang drama ko, para akong hamster na bampira na nagimbak ng dugo ko sa pisngi at later on inilabas.. grabe, lasang lasa ko yung dugo, actually hanggang ngayon eh lasang dugo pa rin. tapos, 3 times ako ininjeksyonan ng anesthesia, kasi medyo masakit. ayoko pa rin yung hinihila na yung ipen ko, or inuuga-uga eh sumasama pa rin yung ulo ko. grabe talaga!
basang-basa ako pagtapos nung operasyon, para kasing fountain yung bibig ko nung parang kinukutingting yung bibig ko ng maliit na drill na nag sisirit ng tubig, tumatalsik yung tubig na nilalabas nung maliit na drill, ewan ko ba kung drill nga ba iyun, eh hanggang ngayon, iniisip ko pa rin kung anung ginagawa nung tool na iyun sa bibig ko ehh..
halos anim na gamot ang iniinom ko ngayon, ibat-ibang kulay at purpose, meorn pa nga kulay pink! :)
iba talga yung operasyon ngayon, mas masakit.. at heto ako ngayon, parang sinapak ng sabay-sabay ng ninja turtles, grabe, seryoso, di ko man lang masabi ang bitch. ugghh..
kung magaling na tong bibig ko next week, mei sampayan na ako sa bibig. :)
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pag gumaling nga pala itong bibig ko, bibili ako ng bagong havaianas, yung mtagal ko ng dapat binili, yung trekk, kasi, dapat meron na ako nun ngayon, eh, lumabas yung havs dragon brown and gold, so hindi ako nakabili ng trekk, pinagiisipan ko kung bibilhin ko ehh yung brazil na color brown o yung pure brown na lang ehh, kaya lang, mei brown na nga ako dba? wala pa akong black, so trekk na lang.. :) 4th pair ko na yun.. :P
hindi pa rin ako nakabili ng suspenders, ay ewan next time na yun, havaianas trekk muna, kasi summer, bagay sa beach! :) dapat kasi eh kahapon bibili na ako ng suspenders, eh wala sa budget ko, kaya kay mommy ko na lang ako papabili ng suspenders.
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kahapon napagusapan namin, na kung bakit yung ibang tao, ang lalaki ng damit? yung mga pa-hip-hop na as in jersey echos, tapos ang laki-laki na parang 10 tao eh kasya dun, niyeeeh! kahit minsan X-small ang size nila, yung t-shirt nila X-large. hehe.. ewan ba namin.. wag na nga lang sila pakialamanan. :)
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trivia: lahat ng link ko sa right side ng blog ko, bago ako magtype ng post ehh binabasa ko muna, para medyo magkaidea ako. as in LAHAT ng nandun tinitignan ko muna kung mey update! :)
so im really bored last night and I've decided to practice my story making skills, eto ang nagawa ko.. the title is "windang," meaning, gulat, hindi makapaniwala.
"Marami akong problema sa buhay ngayon, at sa estado ko, hindi ko alam kung ,alulutas ko pa ang mga problemang ito. sa pamilya, lovelife, studies at kaibigan. sa dami ng problemang ito, tila hindi ko na kayang mabuhay pa, patawarin sana ako ng diyos sa gagawin ko, kung hindi man niya ako mapatawad, maintindihan man lang niya ako, sa mga maiiwan ko, marmaing salamat sa mga memories na ating pinag-saluhan. pag wala na ako, nawa'y ipagpatuloy niyo lang ang inyong buhay. siguro pag-tapos niyo na ito basahin, makikita niyo ako na nahuhulog mula sa 15th floor ng building na ito, mahal ko kayong lahat, lalo na kayo mommy and daddy..
love -chesca."
ito ay isang suicide letter na nakita ni Martha na nakamagnet sa refrigerator nila, ito ay galing sa anak niyang si Chesca na 14 taong gulang. nanlamig ang buong katawan ni Martha at dali-daling umakyat sa 15th floor ng kanilang building.
pak.. pak.. pak.. pabilis ng pabilis ang mga yabag ng paa ni Martha, tila maaabutan na niya ang bukas sa bilis ng kanyang takbo. nakarating si Martha sa tuktok ng building, ilang hagdan na lang ay mabubuksan na niya ang pinto patungo sa kanyang anak na kitang kita na ang bintana ng kamatayan.
pag-bukas ng pinto, nagulantang si Martha sa kanyang nakita, wala roon ang kanyang anak, lumingon-lingon ito ngunit wala pa ring anak ngunit hangin at araw na unti unti na ring lumulubog ang tumambad sa mga mata ng kawawang ina na marahil ay nawalan na ng anak. tila namalik-mata si Martha ng makita niya ang kanyang anak sa sa kabilang building, kinakawayan siya nito na parang masayang masaya, halos nawalan ng pag-asa si Martha at ang tanging naisip, "gusto siguro mamatay ng anak kong masaya ngunit wag sana ang kaway na iyon ang magsilbing kanyang paalam." Sinubukan ni MArtha na pigilin ang magpapakamtay ng anak, tumakbo ito sa kabilang building, sa bilis ng takbo, iisipin mong siya si "Flash."
Binuksan ni Martha ang pinto ng kabilang building, kung nasaan ang kanyang anak, nakaliyad sa rooftop at parng may tinitignan, napasigaw na lang si Martha "anaaaaaakkkk!!! huwaaaaaaggggg!!!!" bumilis ang tibok ng puso ni Chesca, nanlaki ang mga mata nito, tila unang bes niya pa lang nagulat sa talambuhay niya, at sa pagkagulat na ito, unti unti siyang hinigop ng lupa pababa sa pedestal na kanyang tinutuntungan. bumagsak siyang pira-piraso sa bubong ng isang bahay-aliwan. "Ay didit! maayyyyyy.... waayyyyyy." nabutas ang bubong at nahulog mula sa langit ang pira-pirasong bangkay ni Chesca, sabay dukot ng isang lasinggero at subo sa mata ni Chesca, hindi niya alam na ang akala niyang pulutan na ninanamnam ay isang mata ng bata na sawi dahil sa pagkagulat.
Si Martha naman ay kumaripas na naman ng takbo dahil sa takot, bumalik ito sa building nila, mabilis na mabilis ang takbo nito, aakalain mo nanamang siya si "Flash," ngunit wala ng magagwa ang ka-oa-yan ni Martha, patay na ang kanyang anak dahil sa likas niyang pagkabungangera.
pagbalik nito sa apartment nila, binalikan niya ang suicide letter ni Chesca, siniyasat ito at tila ang suicide letter ay karugtong lamang ng nakatuping papel, ito ay nagsisilbing karugtong lang ng mga katagang "DIREKSYON: sumulat ng isang suicide letter na ibibigay mo sa iyong mga magulang kung sakaling ikaw ay mamatay." inungkat pa ni MArtha ang nakatupi pang parte ng papel sa itaas at hindi niya kinaya ang mga sumunod pang salita, humagulgol ang ina dahil sa mga salita na sumusunod. "Christian Living III, IV mid-quarter Exam, score: 30/30! mabuhay batang pototan! sulong kabataan! mabuhay kabataan! kyo ang tunay na pag-asa ng bayan!" sinamahan pa ng smiley na nakabelat pag-katapos ng mga kataga.
biglang nag-ring ang telepono, si Sandra, ang kaibigan ni Chesca. "Nakuha po ba ni Chesca si Muning sa terrace namin?" nahimatay na lang bigla si Martha at naiwan si Sandra na mukhang tanga na Hello ng Hello sa telepono.
edi kanina, binunot na ng dentist yung molar tooth ko. yung sa right lang, hindi niya daw kasi kaya yung dalawa, kahit ako kaya ko, hindi nga lang daw ako makakakakain, kung dalawa na yung nabunot, edi sana by next week mei braces na ako! :) pero isa lang ehh, next week na tatanggalin yung isa pa, yung sa left, mas higa daw yun, hehe.
habang inooperahan ako, opera tlga! hindi siya yung ordinaryong bunot ng ngipin! yung ngipin na nasa pinakadulo ng ipin ko, kunukurot ko sarili ko para dun mabaling yung attention ko, hindi dun sa ginagawa nung doktor. puro bakal kasi pinapasok sa ngipin ko ehh. actually hanggang ngayon nga lasang bakal pa rin, add pa ang mejo pagdudugo nung opera, tinahi nga eh! next week babalik ako, at kung ok na yung sugat sa opera, bubunutin na yung isa pang molar, tapos aantaying gumaling ulit, tapos ikakabait na yung braces! :)
pinaka ayoko ginawa skain kanina eh yung pag-pasok ng mga-bakal-bakal sa bibig ko ng hindi ko alam kung anu ginagawa sa akin, marahil sinusugatan na ako o baka pinapakain na sa akin yung bakal, hindi ko tlga alam, yun lang yung ayoko, kais prang mukha akong tanga na nga-nga ng nga-nga dun, mamaya delikado na pala lagay ko! :) pero anyway, magaling yung doktor ko kanina, so no worries! :)
Waking up early is a usual routine for me. Why? Because I have to check my friendster account and this dating website that enables me to meet more and more people. A message. Ahhh, from Malaya, my friend who’s always there to be with me in mall trips! And another one. From Paul, my suitor (yihee). That bastard doesn’t really learn and put on his head that I hate him to pieces, arggghh!! And another message, from Jorge, my buddy, that fella doesn’t fail to make me blush with his messages. I don’t care for those people, for they just want to play with me and write me on the list of their “flings.”
“… The early bird… yeah right! Whatever..”
Next is my morning routine, at 12 o’clock, I have to take a bath, clean my ears, my belly button and my nose then put lotion all over my body and cologne. I must smell good so I can attract more and more people. YEAH! Next is packing my things, first on the list is my cologne, next is a pack of tissue and then my mouth wash, breath mints, alcohol and lastly, condoms. Men in this present time gets so irresponsible that they always forget to put an extra contraceptive on hand for them to use in times of emergency.
“… Ohhh girls, just wanna have fun!!”
I have to get to my next destination, the mall, as fast as I can. Ill stay there till the sun goes down, oh! And meet Malaya, we’ll have lunch together, where else? Shakey’s!!! if not in Shakey’s, we’ll be in Tokyo Tokyo, why? Because they have the cutest service crews there! After we eat, we usually leave something in the package counter in front of the mall so we could drop a “hi” to Lance, the package counter boy there. Afterwards, we’ll be watching “The Prostitute,” a movie about a whore who died because of AIDS. Isn’t it ironic? Liberation, bad, business, death.
“… As the sign fades away...”
In the movie, when things get hotter and sexier, Malaya and I usually do something that we must not do. What can we do? We cant help it and besides, all of the people in the movie house are doing the same thing, we’re just being ourselves. After the movie, we normally drop by the bathroom and have a retouch, you know? We have to look fresh after one activity. After that, we always go to the arcade section and play “Dawn of the dead,” when guys see us playing this game, they can’t resist saying “hello,” and that’s how we met our other flings, hell!! They really look good. After spending a hundred or two on that game, we will eat our dinner, I have to recharge for a long night life and after eating dinner, Malaya and I will separate ways and Jemimah will fetch me to go to that “barn” in Malate.
On the ride, we usually listen to “slut” songs, like the one playing now, “Stars are Blind” by Paris Hilton.
“… I can make it nice and naughty, with the devil and angel too!”
I always get energetic when the song reaches this part, Jemimah and I sings this with the “waving of our shoulders” dance step, this song never fails to boost our energy for the whole night party. After some few songs finish on our list, we will then arrive at the famous “The Barn.” It is a small 2 floor-building where people dance until their lungs comes out. Loud music, alcohol, lust, crazy lights and liberation are some of the things that you will normally see when you enter a party house. When people get serious, they go upstairs where darkness is present, that’s why it is called “The Dark Room,” it’s a room where people who don’t have a “place” to pour their horny feelings go. But I don’t go there, for I think that’s too cheap, and besides, I pick the people I kiss or make love with, I usually go with the people who has a big bulge on their pockets, for in this modern time, feelings are not important, we must be practical and at the same time, have fun!
“… Nothing can stop us, not now I love you, they’re not gonna get us…”
It will never go out of the barn’s play list, for many people there can relate to that song, a song about an eternal love from members of the third sex. After some alcohol shots, I get tipsy and then drunk. When the clock strikes twelve, all people at the party are normally wasted. We go wild, dance steps like “head bang,” “close contact grind,” and “f*ck me” are all done by the wasted people. When I get drunk, I don’t do dance steps, I kiss everybody in the house. Even waiters! Whose job is only to serve their customers but they go wild with me! Oh, I almost forgot, I think I’m not lucky this night, I think no one will take me home and have fun till the morning.
“… and light do fades away…”
After a long night of dancing, kissing, partying and wasting money, Jemimah and I usually checks in a hotel, but not this night, we were both unlucky, for no one was perceived by our beauty, so we’ll just go straight home and get a good night sleep.
“… Maybe surrounded by, a million people I, I feel all alone, I just wanna go home.”
When going home, Jemimah and I get so emotional, totally emotional that we almost break down, especially when the song “home” plays, I don’t want to go home, I want to have fun and party, but enough for this night, I have spent 3 thousand pesos but my heart still says that I want to party.
“… gumagabi na, ako’y uuwi na, tapos na ang saya, balik na sa problema.”
When I sit and reflect on my bed, this song always play in my head, I always think of ideas about liberalization, discrimination, prostitution, the party that just happened and other personal problems. And I cant help but be silent and again, think. And then I get sad, for remembering those wild lights, loud sounds, over-liberated people, crazy dance steps and good wine makes me feel ecstatic, and at the same time, empty, I just realized that my “escape” is over, escape from a world where I am totally alone. An unwanted tear suddenly fell, a symbol of disappointment of myself, I feel so alone that I think no one understands and cares for me. Ever since I reached the stage of adolescence, I’ve been searching for the assurance that someone will pick me if there will be instances that they need to pick between other people or me, the assurance that someone will be knocking at my hospital door, bringing cake and trying to comfort me when I am sick, or just the assurance that someone is always there caring for me, until now, I cant find those assurance. And then there’s silence, it also added to the feeling that I’ve been telling you, emptiness, and then I fall to sleep.
“…Twinkle twinkle little st SHUT UP!! Were trying to get some sleep here!!”
By the way, this is Jeremy, saying goodnight and party.
“… tapos na ang saya, balik na sa problema.”
About The Author: Justin Monton, born in April 9 1991 in the small province of Cavite, a film maker who tackles issues about liberalization, no wonder he is one of the most controversial directors in this modern time. He is also known for his fearless views and opinions about politics and social statuses. For the past 10 years, he has been taking home the best picture award from Oscars for his 10 works of wonder. His movie “Raketista,” one of the movies who earned the Oscar’s best picture award, has been playing 5 years since its show date. With these achievements, Justin stayed simple opening the minds of people and helping the indigents, you can usually find him partying in the most expensive bars in the world.
*** at dhail wala akong maisip na post.. gumaya na lang ako kay meryl! hehe.. eto ay english project. ang original title niyan eh "a day in a life of a bitch," pero parang straight to the point yung title kaya pinalitan ko into half-empty mouthwash. yehey.
Natry mo na bang magchat sa Yahoo Messenger? Isa ka ba sa mga taong umaasang magkakaroon ng kaibigan sa tootoong buhay(mei pekeng buhay ba?) sa pamamagitan ng YM(yahoo messenger)? Isa ka ba sa mga taong nagtatago sa mga nickname na patambay tambay sa mga channels nito at type ng type ng 2 walang kamatayang kataga na nagsasabing "hi" o hindi naman kaya "hello?" Isa ka ba sa mga nagsasabing c2c, im 18 m, pasig ng paulit ulit ngunit wala pa ring nakikipag usap sayo? o isa ka ba sa mga taong napeke ng mga lalakeng nagkukunwaring babae para mapagtripan ka ng barkada nila ngunit deep inside naaawa sya sayo dahil ang totoo, mei puso siyang mamon at gwapong gwapo siya sayo? isa ka ba sa mga taong napeke na dahil kinopya nila ang picture ng iba sa friendster at nagphotoshare pa kayo at sinasabi niyang "oo! ako yan!"
never ako nakaranas ng mga taong ganyan dahil matitino ang mga nakakausap ko dun. mapalalaki, babae, bakla, bi, les name it. maayos kausap. at pawang mayayaman. haay. ym ang mundo ko last summer, lalo na nung bakasyon, ito lang ang way ng pakikipaginteract ko sa mga tao. dahil hindi naman ako lumalabas ng bahay. pero this summer, huh! alisin ang ym para makameet ng ibang tao sa bokabularyo, ginagamit ko lang ang ym ngayon para makatuklas ng bagong kultura lalo na ng mga tiga china! ewan, ang saya nila kausap, parang tayo, kung tutuusin mas hospitable pa sila satin. ayaw nila ng nawawalan ng topic. maayos, masya at hindi sila bastos kausap. masaya. ewan ko ba. bakit ang lakas ng hatak ng mga intsik sakin. hahaay. pero kayo. kung gusto niyo itry ang YM world, ayos lang, wag lang kayo makikisali dun sa mga taong cheap(teka, ang yabang ko.) basta, wag kayong makikipag usap sa mga taong halatang palinkera dahil wala kayong makukuha kundi puro away at away!
YM ko: dnt_h8_meh_coz_ahm_meh@yahoo.com
eto nga pala ang finished product ng isa sa mga shinooting namin!
sa wakas! nakagawa rin ako ng project! actually! projectsssss!!! yeah! im saying it loud and proud! projectsssss!!! with the sssssssss! kanina, pumasok lang kami para sa wala! dapat magpapraktis ng kanta eh dpt pa ba namin praktisin yun? eh lahat kami alam naman na yung kantang yun! onga pala! what matters most at umagang kay ganda ang grad song namin. (uu! pinayagan ang tagalong song namin dahil maayos naman daw!)
at unexpected tlga, 2 days nako naghahanap ng artista para gumawa ng campaign ad! and guess what? finally, nakakuha ako! at isa na naman na dapat kong ipagkaproud dahil 2 ang nakuha ko at hindi sila tinatamad! 2 days nakong naghahanap ng artista noh! ayun nga! si jay-ar at si aika ang mga artista ko! plano ko isa lang gagawin kong campaign ad. actually walang plano eh. hindi ako nagugol ng oras para umupo dito sa harap ng computer at mag-isip ng talagang pinag isipang campaign ad. so sa makatwid, on-the-spot yung ginawa namin kanina! lahat as in! sa plot, tpos sa artista, and sa props. ayun. nakagawa kami ng TATLO!! take note! TATLONG campain ad! yeah! ang saya ko! yung nagawa namin bukas ko na ipopost dhil kailangan pa ng edit. yey! ang saya ko tlga! d sya ganun kaganda dahil nga on the spot, kulang sa gadgets at sa experience at medyo mainit! pero kahit na! maipagmamalaki ko pa rin! at para sa akin, maganda!! at nakakatawa!
** oo nga pala, sa mga ayaw ng blog ko dhail tagalog ito at informal, makakaalis na kayo. nakakinis kasi, dba ang blog your thoughts, your feelings, daily ramblings(example toh ng header ah? :P) eh kung pipilitin kong mag-english, hindi na ako yun. hindi na yun si he-bitch dis-justennybear!, anyway, mas pipiliin ko ng konti ang magbasa dito sa blog ko kesa sa malaait. at least tru readers/friends/acquaintances ang nagbabasa dito. at isa pa, kung hindi nio gusto itong mga tagalog and informal posts ko na akong ako, baka pag pinilit kong mag-english na hindi naman ako, mas lalong hindi niyo magustuhan.
